I will be away for a while

Unfortunately due to family reasons I will be away for a while. Im hoping not to gain too much weight with being away but I just can't deal with much more right now. I should be back to it in about 4 weeks and I really do need to step it up a gear. I need to embrace ana the way in which she once cradled me!

Think thin

XOXO

OH DEAR OH DEAR OH DEAR

Hey Everyone,

Ok so Ive been away for a while for personal reasons. things have been really difficult with family issues and whatnot. Things have finally settled but I have gained weight, how much im not sure as I dont have access to any scales until tomorrow. The weight gain has brought with it an extreme bout of depression which in turn has caused uncontrollable binges. this has to end, i must regain control!!!!!!!!

Much love and thin thoughts

Nicole

XOXO

Breaking News - I want to die!!!!!!

I've lost count of how many days Ive been awake, I've lost track of what day of the week it is and what date it is. Insomnia haunts me and I hate it. Not only that I don't seem to able to switch back to Ana. ARGH!!!!!

Thin Thoughts

XOXO

Im too fat... time for thinspiration

Some thinspiration featuring the beautiful Cheryl Cole...

It should be a crime to look that perfect, not just thin but stunningly beautiful too!!!!

Thin Dreams :-)

XOXO

Today has been tough

Well today has been a tough one. Ive not been battling with the voices in my head but battling with the opinions and forcefulness of other people. I understand that it's only because they care but it would be so much easier if they just left me to it!!

I feel sooooo bloated and horrible!!!! I will be thin, I will be perfect!!

Think Thin Thoughts

XOXO

I DESPISE INSOMNIA

Just a quick post as I can't sleep. Its 1am and I havent slept for 4 days and I still can't seem to fall asleep! It is so frustrating!!!!! Ive gone longer than 4 days before but each time this cycle of chronic insomnia hits me, Im unable to cope with it more and more. It is emotionally exhausting. Ive tried so many different kinds of sleep medication from my doctor but nothing seems to work. In large doses they knock me out but an hour later Im up and my brain is turning over and over once again!! I wish we had on off switch. It would make things so much easier.

Im sat on my bed and I can almost hear my stomach grumble above the sound of my tv. I feel a little sick with hunger right now which is unusual for me. I usually feel empty and my stomach grumbles but I rarely feel sick with it. I'll blame tiredness this time round! lol. At least I can sit in the comfort that I am empty and today has been productive :-). I have to be up in 5 hours time so I better try and shut my eyes, not that I'll actually fall asleep :-(.

Keep thinking thin thoughts.

XOXO

what i want to be.....

A reminder of what I want to achieve. An image of perfection and a true inspiration

Stay Strong and THINK THIN!!!!!

XOXO